4-18-10 "You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life" Albert Camus

"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life."
— Albert Camus

I think I was supposed to be searching for the meaning of life this past week but put that huge task aside to just live.
Why would I want to keep asking “Why am I here?” or “Why did this have to happen?”? Every human that has ever lived has asked these questions at least once in their lives. And I don’t know about you but I hate having to repeat myself. I don’t know how many times I have yelled “Don’t slam the door” to all the teenagers that come through my front door. I have even threatened to ban said teenagers…but alas…it still happens.
I have had a couple of adventures within the past week though. Some movie plans fell through and I suggested we try a new ‘trailor’ eatery, here in South Austin. My friend who was with me had doubts, coming from Chicago, one never eats from street vendors. But I had heard wonderful things about this place. So, we got to the window and ordered Duck breast with grilled asparagus and boiled duck egg sauce, Grilled pork on foccocia with olive oil and green olives and half a grilled quail. We walked down to the corner store, got a bottle of Pinot. Our food came and was presented with care and splendor. Almost looked to good to eat but eat it, we did! And OMG…had to hug the chef, words would not do!! Went to a new wine bar after and had a great time there as my Chicago friend loves wine and loves to talk about it to others!
And my other adventure was going to the Austin International Poetry Anthology reading and kick off of the AIP Festival. I have to say that I wanted to write the whole evening. But I didn’t want to stop listening to the readings. How frustrating for me! But I did write a little something about a handbag that was sitting next to me for a while…sigh, it had to go!!
But what really happened, is that I lived. I smiled, I laughed, I even danced, a little. I didn’t let the little or big things get me down. I rolled with the punches and got up, joyfully!! Get up, do something completely different, stop thinking about the ‘why’s’ and just DO!
Now where is that freaking laundry fairy, she needs to get back to work!!

May our week be as fruitful as I will try to make mine!

L